ran in the pouring rain.
but the onli thing in muh mind is u.
think and think.jus wanna continue runnin.
tellin muhself.if i continue runnin.i will see u quite soon
and that muh made believe fairy tale will be a step closer

run run run.i like the feeling.the feeling of tastin muh perspiration and tears together.
although it was tough when runnin but it does not hurt as much when muh
hart got stabbed.now.its worse.like pouring a whole tin of salt onto a wound.that pain.
the misery.

its alrite.at least ure doin fine..the cold wind blowin into muh face.dried muh eyes.the cold air con blowing into muh face.dried muh tears.didnt wanna leave the air con.coz muh eyes will be much drier.
cant help it.after all left.alone in da bus.muh tears flowed.though pai sei to tear in bus.but uncontrollable.

in the carpark of muh condo.wanted to scream out loud.but all i did was let out a loud sigh.deep breath.walk into hse.all seems fine.

heard bout mood swings mean ure happie 1 sec.den damn down the other sec.well.doesn't that ressembles mie?.some may hate mie for dampenin their mood.sorrie.so jus dun talk to mie lors.

-jolini mao-
ur eyes slammed mie into the grave.
but i like starin into ur eyes.
gradually.there will not be muh reflection in them.
i believe.muh persue.hurts.but i dun care.

slap mie to make mie feel betta.slap.

saw this tv series.is hong kong series lar.vcd form.
den the finale.
so touchin.let mi summarise the whole story


there is the female lead actress.name-TSE(pronounce in cantonese).2 male lead actor.main lead-alan,shum long. second lead-kuen lik.ah lik(pronounce in cantonese). not mentionin bout their family..and other matters.jus this prob.lurve prob.

TSE.ALAN.AHLIK.work in the same company.its a hotel cum shoppin mall buildin.owned by a rich man lar.
after all the complicated family stuff.
TSE lurve ALAN.ALAN lurve TSE. ahlik is their good fren.(simply)
but there are arguements between tse and alan.bout rumours dat alan and his lady boss got affair.hai.den tse and alan broke up coz tse believed those rumours.
den ahlik likes tse.so blha blha blah..tse and ahlik together ler.but tse still lurve alan.she dun wanan hurt ahlik's feelings so she accept him one lors.
den when ahlik propose to tse.tse accepted coz she dun wanna hurt him.
but when all the rumous were cleared.as in tse noes that alan onli lurves her, she regretted.so she and alan went back together.but ahlik could not accept the fact.so he drank.he got beaten...
so alan and tse told a WHITE LIE.tellin ahlik that tse still lurve him and that they(tse and alan) are not together.sad lors.

in the end.ahlik found his courage to face reality.so he wrote two letters.once to tse.one to alan.
tellin them that he noes they(alan and tse)are meant for each other.he noes that they lied to him bout them not likin each other and stuff so as not to hurt him.ahlik gave them their blessings and tse and alan,thru fate.got back together.
lots more sweet and romantic parts i didnt sae.coz.hard to describe the original feel...

its like a fairy tale.reali nice touchin sweet realistic and true.
oh well.all fairy tales haf a happie endin.where's mine?.though i'm not a princess.not cinderella.but.all gurls deserve to haf their very own fairy tale.one which they could relate their happiness and dream to.how i wish muh prince charmin would come back to mie.but its all bout fate?.wad if i defy fate.it cant possibly happen correct.so.all i can do is live in muh own world.hopin all is fine.hopin that one day.muh life will get twisted.and muh fairy tale came true.lovers ought to be together.i yearn for him.but i didnt grab hold of him tight enough.hope he at least remembers the memories.at least the happie ones.

didnt watch muh yu le bai fen bai coz of this finale.didnt regret.coz u gotta sacrifice.alrite.although is vcd.can watch anytime.but.dun u wanna noe how this fairy tale end?.so i missed muh yu le bai fen bai lo.

xiaozhu..tmr also cannot see ur yu le bai fen bai.got sutpid joggathon.oh well.xiaozhu.hai shi ni hao.when i sad.see ur yu le bai fen bai.cheer up a bit ler.coz u remind mie of him.ure da best alan luo zhi xiang SHOW xiaozhu.

ur eyes are reali mesmorising.even when u laugh.and ur eyes are like one line.but.i still lurve starin at them.but when u looked muh way.i wud turn away.coz direct eye contact.mis them.but i cant haf them.hai.

-jolini mao-
the smiles.the moments.
always in mie.forever they stay

hey.we 'talked'.
kinda.aint it a long time since we had eye contact for more den 2 secs?.yea.
lurve the encounter.misses...

change seatin arrangement ler.
i sittin wif peiquin.rite infront.by the door.at least there got one fan lar.so i sit there..lean back..can blow blow.
behind mie is suhui and jia feng.lol.handwriting ppl.lol
den beside mie got mel.jodder.lerler..near mie got mich.mag.wenjin.so urmx.quite alrite lar.
yea..i and muh lerler.still go fer our toilet routine.together.
todae after sch dunno wads wrong wif mie.mood suddenly shot up den fell to negative level.
ppl talk to mie.i kinda attitude lar.dunno lar..sweep past u.hai.if onli i could walk by u.not rush past u.at least.i get to see ur mesmorising eyes.
went back class..continue wif math.den went to buy food wif lerler.
den dance practise.blah blah blah blah blah blah
blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah
blah blah blah blah blah


home ler.


nana..i will always be there for u kiex.i lurve u muh dear.dun be sad alrite.ur laogong alwaex here for u.i will alwaex willing to lend u muh shoulder to lean on.let u scream into muh ears.i will wipe the tears off ur ke ai face alrite..since u tore it up and flush it ler.den dun think bout it ler alrite.tmr will be a betta dae.laogong will always be by ur side!!..laopo must be strong kiex.we shall go thru this tough times together.it wun be dat painful ler.coz i haf u and u haf mie.so.show mie the laughter of yours i long for..smiless.

-jolini mao-
i onli fall in lurve wif u.
i wun climb out of it.
i will stay in there.
hoping one dae.
u'll jump in to join mie.
ilu184.

so disappointed in some dance juniors.
no one to teach.nothin to learn.dunno how to find seniors or teachers.not like they dunno where we will be lors.
den for the last dance practices.all they did was rot.
den demoralised de mrs kang..come and tell mie..man.she looked ghastly.
oh well..hope dat next week onwards, the prob wud be rectified bahx.
as for weilin and mie de grp.u all did a great job ya.the juniors.improving but must put in more effort ya.weilin did a great job.!!..

each day past as though a part of mie was gone.
although each dae, happie stuff happened.farni instances occur.but.deep inside.the genuine smile had been erased.
appreciated all of ur actiions and words of concern peeps.but.the ger i used to be.the 24/7 insane ger i was.has faded.its has faded together wif the lurve u had for mie.
until a time where mie.the purely simple gerl..changed all the simple facts into complicated problems.dealing wif them..suffocating.

i am contented wif wad i haf now.wad i am now.wad i do now.coz.i dont haf a choice.
all i ever wanted.all i ever needed.will slowly float away from mie.each day.the distance got dragged further away.the memories remained.the sweet lil arguments i nvr will forget.
i'm counted fortunate to haf buds ard mie whenever i needed someone..all of u rawks..

learnin to barely feel the pain.although there's no sign of healing.but its alrite
coz she's lurving him still.after all this time.12081201.yar.i'm attached not literally but.i am.

jolini mao.the smiles.
special thanks to:
marhawk.
nana.
laoba.
sidog.
lerler.
and all whom managed to put a smile across muh face.

i'm done here.jus to let u peeps noe.i am still alive.
i am happie.jus wasnt like before.
hope u all will understand whie.
the hurtful facts.stabbed mie straight in the hart.
but i could not release the blood clot.
its dere.forever.

.in sch.although is was reali reali farni.laugh till i cry.laugh till muh stomach veri pain.when sch ends.the happiness got washed away.

i did math hmwk fer like 4 and 1/2 hours.of coz not one shot.do fer 2 hours.den eat dinner den continue.hmwk reali can make mie concentrate fer that moment.did finish all the exercises 5. den did one exercise of 9.of coz i watched tv while doin then listen to music while doin or chattin while doin.so kinda got delay lar.

totally avoided u todae.although i walk past u a couple of times.one time eye contact.laughed bout ur farni reactions.but ya.cold.but contented.heard some stuff i reali hope i did not hear.i mean it might not mean anything to u.but i dun wan hear it again can.!!

tomoro cher gonna change sitting arrangement liao..i DUN WAN..this time I REALI DUN WAN..muh grp veri nice!.we laugh like crazy together and get down to serious work together.especially got muh lerler den wif anne anne and oixin..i dun wanna split up can..sobxx..

-all i wanted in muh life.
fallen to pieces-

todae watched the movie: yours,mine,ours

veri nice lar.
its about this couple.they split up after high school to persue their own dreams.
then met up one dae in a restaurant again.
in between gort introduce their family of 8 and 10 children each.
den dey gort married ler.
den 18 children.pa.ma.live in a light house.veri beautiful.

den the children dun like each other lar.so they plan a plot to split the pa and ma up.
thru this process..the children gain trust in each other and they like to live togther..
so dey confess to their parents dat dey did wan to split them up..den in the end the parents patch up..so sweet!!!!...

in the movie gort mention one story

::my beautiful light house keeper::
theres a hot lady wif red hair.and her husband who iis a sailor..
the sailor always out at sea. when he iis out at sea, he wonders whether his beautiful lighthouse keeper will miss him and continue to lurve him.so when he is out at sea. he will look back.if he sees light coming from the lighthouse..means that his wife still lurve him and wish him to come back.....so sweetxx

just now mummie called korkor.coz korkor now in hong kong wif fren..
den he said he bot two shirts.one fer himself.one for MIEE..
he said the shirts he bot were one hundred plus sing dollars each..hee..i so happiee
korkor buy shirt shirt for miee!!!..heex.todae his first dae at hong kong.
feels weird without him at hm..he laughs real loud.
and always kajiao mie one.

oh well..he will be back 4 days lata..on tues.when i sch reopen ler...
cant wait to see wad shirt he buys fer miee!!..hope he buys moree..
korkor misses miee..hee..maybe i shall get him something too..

to GUY:misses eeuu so much..
todae told laoba some probs.includin probs bout GUY.felt relieved.at least now laoba noes how i feel and whie i cry.
laoba.wo hui xue ze jian qiang.yi ding hui yong gan de huo xia qu!!..
without eeuu GUY.my life has fallen to pieces.....
i wait at hm.wishin u will appear online.
so i can stare at ur nick..and noe ure fine..

all the best ppl.sch reopenin liao.sianzation.

i haven finish the holiday homework.
onli did ss and chinese..imagine how much i lefttt..
i always plan out muh time to do work.but in the end.i neva do.
i used to haf ur presence to pei mi do.
to assign mie a time to do.to compete wif u.
.jolin mao.
now.i'm competing wif muhself.whie wud i even wan to do it now.
been slackin a lot.been slackin coz u werent dere to motivate miee..
always wanna win u..always haf u to challenge.now.i challenge muhself.
mie.slack den.
.eeyore.
the chain u gaf mie for muh burfdae.on mie.
all ur stuff.are visible on muh table.

SENTOSA

ohwell.
when we reach there.hot lar.wearing claz tee somemore..black colour de..my gawdss
started off with the 8 stagess game
stage 1: grp of 6.'3' legged race..veri the messy lar..tie all the members legs.u noe.like ur right leg tie to the nxt person's left leg..den ur left leg tie to the nxt's persons right leg..ya..den liddat liddat..den
stage 2:must pass a polo sweet.using tooth pick(bite wif ur mouth).den pass across lorx..
stage3: must blow ping pong ball out of a container of flour.all members must blow once.haha.
stage4:use chopstick pick out 5 polo sweets and 5 beans.i and elle did the job..oops. forget mention who are muh team members..:: heeday.theresa.le tang.zi jian.michelle and mi!!..
stage 5: memorise sequence of colours..(clapz to zi jian..he did it in the first try)..
stage 6:must eat 5 sour plums.i lemon.i cup of bitter tea..i practically ate 3/4 lemon..sour but nice lar..den the oher 5 of them one sour plum each..bitter tea..YUCK..bitter dao!!!..
stage7:3 legged race to shelter..
stage 8:bury one team member (ours is le tang).den get teacher's attention to take foto..

we got in second. altogether got 4 teams lar.
yelyn's team got in first.yupp..lol..no prize..nor forfeit.jus fer fun onli lar..lol

:::the sea:::
after the game..we run right into the water..splash!!..lol..all piggy back each other..den we sing song..den form a line.a choo choo train..haha..den we move ard...my dear lerler wan to learn how to float..ask her must relax..she huh...haiyo..*faints*...haha..in the end..nvr learn at all..
den we walk in and out..in and out of water..till bout 2.20 ler bahxx..den we drag ah korx into the water..he wear white leyx..haha..we sing him a sexy song.ha..suhui and yelyn lead one.ha.

-lunch-
we left the water.
chantel and mi..we wondered off away from the gurls..haha..
followed ms halimah and the guys(wenjin.kin mun.ann.weiqiang.zijian.jiansen.baoxian.chinchuen and.joey.)..ate burger king..den went back.

on the way back...saw monkey performance..haha..wonder where is simonkzz..haha..veri cute leyx..got red butt..den noe how to slam dunk one lorx..chantel got video the dunk.haha..so cute!!!!..den watch till bout 4.20.we went back ler..

saw some gers 'suntanning'..jus lyin on the sand lar.den dey shout our names to go join dem.we did.ly dere..play play..u noe..'talk talk''gay gay''plaeplae'..hahha..den some left liao..we still dere slack slack..

MS LIM came..drag her into the water..plae plae..den haiyo..
enough liao...all go bathe..left yelyn.denisey.mel.mich.su.fiona.laoliu.mslim.huichen.and mi!!..haha..
denisey.huichen and i bathe in the same cubicle and the same time..of coz we haf strategy larx..so we will not expose any of our impt parts..xp..

den we went back to harbour front to eat at the food court dere..
i ate malay rice lar..lerler also eat..
eat eat eat..half an hour gone..

lerler wan to rush back to watch desperate housewife..yelyn go hm wif her..so i also go hm together wif dem nor..share cab...each person $5..cheap horx..ya lorx...

tired liao lar.
nite peeps.

Ashlee simpson-undiscovered

Take it back,
take it all back now
The things i gave,
like the taste of my kiss on your lips,
I miss that now
I can't try any harder than i do
All the reasons i gave,
excuses i made for you
Are broken in two

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you
Don't walk away

Touch me now how i wanna feel
Something so real,
please remind me
My love,
and take me back
Cuz im so in love with what we were
Im not breathing im suffocating without you
Do u feel it too?

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you

When im in the dark and all alone
Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door,
Its then i know my heart is whole
Theres a million reasons why i cry
Hold my covers tight and close my eyes
Cuz i dont wana be alone

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you,
I need you

Cuz i cant fake
and I cant hate
But it's my heart
Thats about to break
You're all i need
I'm on my knees
Watch me bleed
Would you listen please
I give inI breathe out
I want you,
theres no doubt
I freak out, I'm left out
Without you,
im without
I'm crossed out
I'm kicked out
I cry out
I reach out
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away

today.
7m.
shudhafbeen.

tmr goin sentosa.class outing.i wanna resist the temptation to go down the water.
but my crazie buds will surely splash into the water.
i dun wan leys..lol..although i crave to get wet.
but i dun wan to go into the water.alrite.contradicting myself.

lurve my blog song.

ashlee simpson-undiscovered.
lerler hairs noes.heex.
i also like.
avril lavigne-fallen to pieces
but dunt haf the song in the com.

gonna ask lerler to gimme.got a thumbdrive ler.
daddie got it from HSBC bank.dunno how he get one.
but i gonna use it anyways.lol

all ur things left undiscovered.(to mi)
ure contradicting urself.ihateyou.

holidays ler.
i bored.
jio mi out kiex.-lol.. xp

i free on

sunday 12 march
wednesday 15 march
thursday 16 march
saturday 18 march

haha..xp
happie hols peeps

mizya muh laogongs.

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u all wont be able to see wad i wrote coz.
dun wanna expose the words in muh heart.
-jolini mao-

the shadow of a couple walking past the corridor..
feels as though the footsteps heard down the aisle
u both carried a smile across ur faces.
u both compliment each other.
complimenting.

with jealousy.with an envious mind
witnessing the presence of her beside you
i wished i hadnt see.i wish i could ignore it.
now.all has changed.our lives.somehow.
exchanged.

i became more sensitive.became more sadist.
u became more crazie.more happie.
maybe it's her.
her influence on u.
u lead a better life without mie.

with jealousy, with an envious mind
witnessing u being with another her.
i wished i hadnt see.i wish i could move on
now.all has changed.our lives.somehow
exchanged.

all i wanted was u by my side.
u i can rely on
u i can cry on
u i can call mine
u whom i entrusted my life to
u who called my name when i am down
u who i lurve
u who i will nvr forget.

but
all has changed.our lives.somehow.
exchanged.

[u both look nice together.sweet ya]
[i onli can sit and watch.]
simply stared and walk away.leavin u two together.alone.
mi.with the envious mind.

todae was..fun.ha.
mornin:
daddie force mi eat at hm..coz he cook..and he promise he will send mi go meet the others at CWP..so i of coz agree..lol
in the end i late lar..coz my daddie.go wrong way..TWICE..late 35 mins onli lar..no big deal.((:..

CWP:
FD3 started bout 1pm..den watch watch watch...den si michelle..scream scream..i smarter..i nvr scream..(:..coz i use bag to cover muh face..heex..after watch.go mos burger..the si monkeyx and si dog want to eat.i and shell watch.lol

town:
went to heeren.took neoprints.haha..before that..at the entrance of heeren..got one band performin..the vocal so cute!!!but shell prefer the drummer...no..the vocal more cute!!

den saw the jap couple..remember.the one i took their foto on the bus one..i regconise the idiotic gurl.buy the guy head face down.cant see his cute cute face!!!

saw muh aunt too..ha..she wif her frens.go eat..den i wif my frens.thinkin where to go nxt.she so nice..she ask if i got bring enough money anot..heex..i said enuff..heex..alrite.i siao liaox

in the end went the dunno wad far east shoppiny centre plae pool..haha..si monkeyx is my shi fu.ha.den si dog is shell de shi fu..i win!!..hai..i lost too..coz hit in the black ball lar!!!..freako..haha..

9 liaoxx..dunno where to go liao..den pei si monkeyx go to cine wait fer his buds[keong.bendan.and bendan de fren]..ha.after dat
went hm lorxx..at first wan to take cab one.budden wait and wait no haf..so took train

train:
left si dog.shell and mi onli..si dog was like.my there more scary and isolated..so he send mi back..took cab from cck..reach hm bout 11 plus...yawns..

cook bei mian to eat..ha.let muh aunt snatch the remanin half.coz she also hungry.

tmr after tuition in da mornin goin to lerler hairs hse do project..heex..she live four bus stops away fro mi onli..so..yar la..haha..

i am in da saving money status..so dun tempt mi wif clothes.food and stuff dat i like alrite..

i wan that bear..the 'me to you' bear..SI MONKEYX..u noe which few la horxx..the one wif rose..the one wif t-shirt.and the $399 one..heex..the other two cheaper lar..bout $70 to $100 onli.........

bleahss..

$$gotta save save save ler$$

ler ler hairs.u'll get ur sakae sushi treat during da holidays ya.
like urms..when u wanna cut ur hair.lol..our neoprint too.alrite gurl
must gimme some time to save lar..haha..xp..coz i did not start savin
><..

alrite.sat goin out wif simonkeyx and si meliphant.maybe si dog coming along la.dunno la.lol.
watch movie
plae pool
take neoprint(s)
lollss
lookin forward fer my pool.so long no play le.
as fer movie..its final destination3.that gross yet "i wanna watch" show..lol
alrite.todae like.nothin much la
practically.

hai.
u're so cold.u're so hurtful.are u treating mi like transparent
if u will to notice, u might see my shadow.
well.hope i wun be forgotten.i dun mind leadin a life liddat
coz i'm hurt enough to be numb.i will jus complain to ppl
and vent my anger on my wet pillow.
i m slackin.
i m breakin down.
all thanks to u.
but i dun blame u.
seriously.u're an individual.so am i.
whie would u even bother bout mi.

-muhlife.muhANIMALSS-
ulightupmylife.

Name : Jolin
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